Lost in the spaces

I guess I lost you,
In the spaces between us.
The wait increases everyday,
Each passing moment widened the gap today.
I see you from far away,
Waving to have the final say.
Nothing works, nothing stops you
From smudging my heart away.
Tears roll down in misery,
Fading memories flicker strongly,
Like the last light of an old candle.
You created the space between us,
To protect your inner space.
I destroyed myself,
In search for peace with you.
There is a war within me,
Your ghost follows me everywhere.
I hope you get my peace,
Now that I have your war.

The piano player

As the keys click on the piano,
I feel your touch on them.
Every sound every sigh reminds me of your presence.
It sounds like a heartbeat,
A sad song from the dead.
In a parallel world,
I'm sitting besides you
Writing a song.
The lyrics are unclear.
It is not a love song, not yet.
I write about new beginnings
And sad endings.
I see you looking at me,
As you play the key.
The light has filled the room
And there is silence on the Chapel Lane.
We shall stop making music now.
The dream is lost
Your face fades away,
As I wake up from my sleep.
Lyrics make sense now,
It's a love song with a sad end.
The key matches my note,
To be together we were never meant.

Moving On

And we continue to lead these independent lives
Seemingly erasing our past away.
We go on dreaming,
imagining like there was no yesterday.
We are lost among the millions of Christmas lights.
The speed of time takes us far away from our memories and plight.
Is this what they say to wither away?
One day you are a smiling green,
then you turn a happy red and alas,
The paleness sets in.
I seek peace in the warm coffee,
In my chaos, I search for order.
Happiness is far away.
I shall fill my life with things that give you meaning.
But it will remain empty.
I try to make sense of every word we spoke,
but a mystery it remains.
I shall put the pen down,
One final time.
When my mind stops speaking.
It is going to take a while.

Slowing down

I'm getting tired of running,
Trying to catch the butterfly.
It's too fast, too ignorant of my presence.
It's raining out here
Pouring everyday
Washing my patience away.
I don't know how long it 'll last.
How long can I hold on?
Do I really have to move on?
Such a waste of an emotion.
I truly felt there was a deep connection.
I felt like I knew everything you said and didn't say.
But it now seems a big facade.
A lie just to pass the time.
To make your time worth the while.
Maybe it was in my destiny
To learn the lessons I refuse to read.
The butterflies shall hit me again.

I Miss You

Ever felt like wondering
Where you stand today and where are you headed?
I feel like I'm walking alone
No excitement no direction
Everything is still and quiet
I hear the sound of the needles moving
Every minute every tick and tock
Feels like there is a pit in my chest.
An emptiness crawls out every night I go to bed.
This isn't a seasonal SAD.
This is a fundamental change.
I see a helpless fight within me
I want to rush to my castle within me
The darkness and cold outside doesn't bother me
I feel cold within me.
I feel lonely yet I'm not.
I need your hand,
Your presence betrays me.
I have no rhyme scheme to match my feelings.
I miss you,
It's as simple as that!

Memories fade away

Time catches on,
Memories fade away
Each passing day, we forget the yesterday
I try to hold on but I have to let go.
Since you do not catch on
I have to let go
Of the sweet sunsets
The memories
What a waste!
Of feelings I felt, of the time I spent with you.
I knew this day would come
I knew you would turn away
Hence I made so many memories.
But it's hard to let go.
Let go of you and your memories
If I latch on, you will explode
So I have to let go
And the sweet memories remain so.
In a corner of my mind.
Such a sad waste of feelings of this kind.