I Miss You

Ever felt like wondering
Where you stand today and where are you headed?
I feel like I'm walking alone
No excitement no direction
Everything is still and quiet
I hear the sound of the needles moving
Every minute every tick and tock
Feels like there is a pit in my chest.
An emptiness crawls out every night I go to bed.
This isn't a seasonal SAD.
This is a fundamental change.
I see a helpless fight within me
I want to rush to my castle within me
The darkness and cold outside doesn't bother me
I feel cold within me.
I feel lonely yet I'm not.
I need your hand,
Your presence betrays me.
I have no rhyme scheme to match my feelings.
I miss you,
It's as simple as that!

Journey of happiness

Deep down it will hurt,
When I will look back at my life.
Because it is my own ambitious mind
That speaks to me.
It is my own illusional greatness that questions my existence.
You are a mere catalyst, dear love.
For it is I who seeks my own fame.

It is I who is repulsed by mediocrity yet
thrives in it.
I am my own critic.
That's the thing with disillusioned, ambitious people.
I don't know what I seek.
But I am sure to arrive one day.

Spending countless hours reading the inner workings of their minds.
Sorting, analysing every word,
every action.
Always wondering, what is it the mind speaks that words don't let out.
Sorry are the souls who seek happiness
In arriving not knowing the route to embark upon.
I'll be picking up my small pieces of big ambition now.
Promising to start my journey.
Destination will find itself,
All roads come to their end.
Along the way, I shall seek happiness.
Thriving in the journey, not awaiting my place.
As one day when my being is kissed by ashes, my soul will smile with serenity.

Sunset

There will be a sunset one day, 

hope it won't be alone. 

As the sky will turn golden in its last hours,

hope there is much to see.

Much to live before the sky turns blue. 

As I see my sunrise today, 

happy and glowing,

over a glorious future. 

But the sunset comes by quickly,

in the blink of an eye. 

Grab your piece of sand, 

for this time won't return. 

Making happiness is a farce, 

a lie we are meant to live. 

Live each day as it comes by, 

play along as life hits by, 

with a milliard of hues. 

Your greys, the mean reds and the sad blues, 

they all make a palette to live by. 

We are mortals in this world,

only memories live on forever. 

The words spoken shall reflect on our lives forever. 

We will open our lives then to those who seek us.

Long after we are gone. 

Long after the gold turns blue.

Long after the stars are out. 

Those who seek us, 

shall meet us. 

I need a fortune teller, a crystal ball

Fear tears me down,

Worries run down my eyes.

Dark and bleak,

You are fading away.

Can’t hold you enough,

Future looks bleak to me.

I need a fortune teller, a crystal ball.

Foretell me my destiny.

Are you in it with me?

Or will it be dark without you?

I need a fortune teller, a crystal ball.

Is this an augury?

Will I ever touch your softness?

My fears gnaw at me.

I would like to touch you,

Now and forever.

I need a fortune teller, a crystal ball.

Burn bright with me

Don’t fade away my love.

Feel my cry, O love.

Burn bright with me,

And light the future together,

Make our own destiny.

Dedicated to a little girl

Manzil badal gayi hai teri,

Raah main kuch kaante aagaye,

Zindagi jaisi sochi thi,

Ab use alag jeeyegi tu.

Zindagi ne jaldi zeher dikha diya,

Jaisa socha tha, use alag sheher dikha diya. 

College jaaungi main,

Doctor banungi main,

Ache ghar main shaadi karungi main.

Shayad ab alag hoga,

Shayad ab bhi doctor/engineer ban jaau,

Par logon ko alag nazariyen se dekhungi main,

Allah toh jaha tha wahi rahega, teri rehmat ko alag nazariyen se dekhungi main. 

(Dedicated to the little girl (Chashmawala family) who lost everything in Bhendi Bazaar crash on 31 August 2017)